Please Motivate Me!

STUPID
when i start tO say this wOrds
"nak msOk blk class dlu, bley x?"
but, guys
i still cant cOlaberate with my new friends
why?
cOz my heart still there
nOt here...
my gOsh!!!
this situasiOn getting wOrst
sOrry if I use this wOrds
"blaja mcm main2"
nOt the students but the atmOsphere
teachers always nOt arOund
as a new student i feel sO disappOinted
i need tO cOver all cheapter dat i miss
but............
sO?
we shOuld i dO?
back tO my class????
Or
stay here and just gO with the flOw????

TO THOSE WHO CONCERN WITH THIS PROBLEM PLEASE GIVE YOUR OPINION
TO DRAG ME IN THE RIGHT WAY